always.

Monday, June 30, 2008

go or not go? struggling for the answer right now.

ps: bff !!!! please rmb our date on this coming sunday 6/7/08 :D cant wait to see you! shall cam-whore that day alright? loves <3

Sunday, June 29, 2008

oh well, it's the last week of june and it's going to be july next week. and my last week is packed with more work.

volleyball training, peer tutoring, extra classes, homework, projects, new assignments and YES! i am still dying with all these terrible/ deathly / sucky / tight schedule. i almost couldn't breathe.

i hope next week will be better :D

Friday, June 27, 2008

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

My immortal - evanescence

back from camp! camp was pretty alright. know more friends and we did stupid things at orchard road. haha. will upload more camp pictures soon <3>

i will skip the camp part.

ok got papers back today and surprisingly

did pretty well for my common test. :) ok i find that everyone does pretty well too.

yea except for eltech. ok that module is like -_-" shit.

processing....

to word harder.

yes! EXAMS ARE LIKE IN 6 WEEKS TIME.

TIME TO MUG PEOPLE

jia you everybody <3>

* i really hope you wont change course due to some reasons. It's just the beginning and I know you can do well because i believe in you. *

Monday, June 23, 2008

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY GIRL!!! SEE YOU SOON :D

LOVES <3

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

14/06/08

GYM-MING PLAN FAILED. ok. met up with xiao hui for gym-ming. but then due to some stupid idiot reason, (the club doesnt allow guest to go in to gym room on weekends) yea, so we decided to go for arcade. YES our hidden talent finally unleashed. HOHOHO.

15/06/08

cousin's house

cousin's house is like at disneyland. many toys lying around her house. yea. she's a disney freak can. haha. yea and so my whole day is at my cousin's house.

16/06/08

surprisingly, that day is really effective! met up with jiayi for our german project and we're done with that! yes! german project is done :) i feel that day is really a great achievement for me, cause i didnt talk much. haha. usually i will feel distracted and things are always not done you see. probably 16/06/08 is a special day.

yea met tony and sijia at esplanade again. yes AGIAN! OK. intended to go back and borrow my phantom of opera. BUT IS GONE NOW! OMG! i feel so demoralized can. i hide it somewhere, but when i return is gone. ok. fine! that dvd doesnt like me.

and tony and sijia gave me a belated birthday surprise. THANK YOU BABY!!!!!

cam is super good that day! effect is super nice :) i like. i swear i didnt edit any lighting in that pictures.

18/06/08

went town with mummy. haven been going out with her individual (without my brother's presence) for a long time because of o level, work, recent common test. :) i miss those days when im the only child! haha.

ps i will be going camp on 19/06/08. be back on 22/06/08. definitely miss everyone.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

thanks for devoting your 100% love to the family and give us a warm and wonderful place for us. THANK YOU DADDY!

when we were young, daddy help us change our pampers
he has to earn a living for the family
when we grow up, he has to fetch us whenever we go
he worried about our studies
at our teens, he worried for us being cheated by guys and get pregnant
and after graduate, he has to worry for our marriage

there are so many things to worry for. i know it's hard to be a parent especially a father. THANK YOU DADDY!

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Have you ever ask yourself, what is the purpose of living in this world whereby people still grow old and die? why so many violent crimes now? more and more wars and and natural disasters are getting worse. world crisis, famine, diseases and more. why?why? have you ever think of that? many cant answer these questions but if you believe in bible, bible do really answer all these. these things are foretold in the bible that are happening right now.

bible foretold

1) " there will be great earthquakes" (luke 21:11) and it truth that recently we had earthquakes in sichuan. few years back we had tsunami.

2) " there will be.... pestilences" (luke 21:11). more and more diseases despite medical advances. example malaria, SARS, bird flu, and more.

yea? but do u think is god who causes these? OH you're wrong in that case. there is a war broke out in heaven between satan and jesus. but satan lost and he cast out of heaven to earth. and so " woe for the earth... because the Devil has come down to you, having great anger, knowing he has a short period of time" (revelation 12:7,9,12)

and so satan was cast down to earth, and that was 1914, WORLD WAR ONE broke out. the day Jesus Christ become King in heaven, the day satan lost and cast out of heaven, and the day that started WW1. and i believe " the last day" ( 2 Timothy 3:1) is the day god will soon do away with the Devil's influence over the earth! and so the Devil created more and more natural disaster, wars, crimes. because he know that his going to be destroy soon. and hence these are signs and warnings telling us that god is going to do something about it and encourage us to KEEP ON THE WATCH!

and i just want to pass this message around that we might not know what will happen today, tomorrow, or even the next second, the next minute, the next hour. we might die when we walk, might die when we sleep, might die when we eat. who knows right? the place we live in is scary. and so do what is right now. believe what you believe. dont be sad over such small matters and live in this world with our fullest joy now. tell what you need to say to your love ones before anything happens and lastly live with no regrets <3

Friday, June 13, 2008

yes! i went to esplanade again yesterday. i love that place because basically i love the library. can borrow so many wonderful music books, scores, cd and dvds. HAHA. OMG I REGRETTED TO BORROW THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA!! due to taking too many cd, dvds and books without noticing. i thought we can like borrow 8 books + 8 cds but it was not that case. we can only borrow 8 items which include books and cd. AHH. then i have to put back the rest of the cd. you know how sad it was, because i have to take a very long time to decide which to put back. after putting back i regretted lah! ok nvm. because i told "it" " i will come back and borrow you again, so please don't let other people to borrow you!" HAHA.

and basically im obviously damn early that day and after borrowing all the books, met peilin and her friend, matthew! ok ACJC. that smart ass. HAHA. headed to swensens for lunch :) HAHAHA. i was suppose to save money lah. i just dunno why i spent so much. gosh! that's why i asked jia jun to go to the investment talk with me. haha. so i can learn how to use my money wisely. because i had bought this hairband which cost me 9 bucks. omg damn exp! i know. hiaz. im saving now!!!!

buy what you need and not what you want! - ziting.

and and we went starbucks to study. as usual, im alway not serious. but almost 60% of our project is done. so not that bad :) yea then we headed home. :)

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

very special people,

we can be ourselves with,

talk with, laugh with,

hope with and believe with....

once in a lifetime,

if you're lucky

you will find someone...

as i know i found you!

the test of friendship doesn't come when we're together, it comes when we're apart, and we will realize that despite the distance, the friendship is still there :) in this world, many things may be uncertain. BUT only one thing is definite. is the friendship between us because true friends stay together and never say goodbye.

Jeslyn is the girl who i know for 12 years (childhood friend). yes! 12 years of friendship!!! same kindergarden, same primary school. but after PSLE, we went our separate ways but we still contact. of cause, we do fight and quarrel. BUT it is not the end of our friendship. because we learnt how to forgive and forget and now we're really good friends. and i hope the number of years will multiply and eventually maintain our friendship forever!

friends are easy to find, but friendship between each other are hard to maintain. therefore, we should really treasure our friends around us. to me, friends are important and i don't wanna lose any one of them. i know the importance of friendship, because i already lost a friend. so cherish everyone around you!

friends look out for you, inspires you, laugh with you, cries with you, understand you, guide you and walk with you.

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two girls + 1 cam = a lot will happen

yes we took 227 pictures that day! HAHA. that's crazy right?

met Jeslyn for breakfast

crazy shots at west coast park

time to go home! :)

but crazy shots are not over!

A day is going end again. Is nice to have a friend like you. Everyday seems so great. Thank you my friend :)

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

yes that book is fabulous! seriously! read it. is as nice as ps i love you :) MY STORY by dave pelzer. i will blog more bout me and jeslyn probably tmr or when im free. im worn out! good night people.

sometimes i asked myself why I entered AVT at the first place. it not the amazing passion that allow me to join but is just money that give the power to do that. a course that might get good pay in the future.

thinking back of my dreams, i finally know what i wanna do in the future.

but as for now i just want to finish:

1) my grade 8 piano at the age of 17

2) driving at the age of 18

3) diploma at the age of 18

4) degree at the age of 20

5) master degree at the age of probably 22/23

yea im going fly to germany to pursue my dream. study at vienna. or even getting into the royal music school at london. :) and that's one of the reason why i choose german as my foreign language.

YES! and im stuck to the goal and vision. BUT! money is the distraction. it just because of MONEY!! how much must it cost to finish my grade 8? diploma? degree? master degree?10k or even more? im not sure either. OMG! I KNOW IS JUST EXPENSIVE. and and going overseas to study? which need around 100k. great investment! and i know i cant ask much from my parents. i already feel so so so guilty after spending so much money learning piano over the years. and i know i cant disappoint them. so i have to work really hard for music. yea, i started mugging. did all the past year papers and intensive piano lesson. i'm really desperate for money. i just feel that money is everything. no money, no talk. and i cant pursue my dream and goal without money. how to get big bucks in a fast way?

OMG MONEY IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!

money cant buy happiness. It can only provide you with entertainment that wont last. BUT with money. it make things work!!! - melissa

Saturday, June 07, 2008

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at newyork newyork :)

candy floss!! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

count the candles. im 17. yeah. thanks florence for cutting the cake for us. and i got the biggest piece with strawberry.WOAH.haha.

photo shots with ronney. yasser. hafiz. and last but not least, florence :)

ohwell, 060608' is the day i will never ever forget. the day whereby my friends celebrated with me in advance and the day that is the most memorable so far and and and.. our first outing! :) thanks for getting together and gave me a surprise.

im really speechless right now. the happiness, the surprises, the preparation, the effort you guys gave me and and....OMG! words cant explain the feeling i had right now. i really appreciate it a lot. :) THANK YOU PEOPLE.

SPECIALLY THANKS TO :

FLORENCE RONNEY PEILIN - thanks for planning this out. well, im really really happy that you celebrated with me :) pleasure to know you guys.

FLORENCE - thanks arh, all the funny ideas.. like asking me to wait damn long at the MRT station. haha. BUT i still enjoy it. hmm i mean not enjoying waiting. ok i dunno what im talking either :)

PEILIN - thanks for listening to my crappy stories, tolerate my nonsense and complains. haha :) yea now u should know i hate waiting for people, cos i will complain a lot. HAHA

RONNEY - thanks for the nice shots

FREC - thanks for ganging with them and tell me you're at lavendar. HAHAH

HAFIZ - thanks for treating me the movie (kungfu panda). and and celebrate with me.:)

YASSER KHAIRUL HAFIZ GINA - i know you guys have other events but still willing to spare some time for me and come celebrate with me. im really really thankful.

seriously im very very touched. PEOPLE, THANKS BEING MY FRIEND! I LOVE YOU GUYS!! without you guys i dont think i will enjoy my 17 birthday :)

ps: hafiz suggested going to fort canning! yea next outing! fortcanning alright? and we'll have camw-hores there :)

nextnext, after lunch. movie. went to meet daddy and we went to aunt house to celebrate my birthday as well as my cousin's birthday :)

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on the day itself, meet thiam heng and he bought me chocolates for present!!! IM BLESSED WITH CHOCOLATES.

dinner with family :)

wondering why issit so dark? oh there was a blackout!! yea we almost have candlelight dinner.HAHA.

oh i didnt really took pictures of the food but, the food is really fantastic. go try it! is at chinatown, the korean restaurant. :)

UNEXPECTED PEOPLE WHO MSG ME :

1)shiqi

2)xiao hui

3)calvin

THANK YOU

1)tony (singing birthday song thru' the phone)

2)sijia, jeslyn, khairul and thiam heng (who actually msg me when the clock strike 12)

AND ALL PEOPLE WHO STILL REMEMBER MY BIRTHDAY :) THANK YOU!

and now, my birthday is over!

ps: i will alway remember what kenric said " we cant always depend on friends. family is for life". well i will alway remember that :)